I just remembered something from watching the Celebrity Apprentence when JJ was on the show. Another contestant was often out of it due to his abuse of alcohol and Jesse spoke up and said he might want to look into his addiction problem as it was not doing him any good. Jesse said he knew this because he was sober now for nine years I think he said. Therefore, it's safe to conclude that he used to be a high guy and obviously ran with a pretty deviant crowd considering he had married a *advertiser censored* star. Then Sandra meets him after he's been sober for awhile but doesn't really understand the seriousness of his past behavior and the depth of his deviancy. She probably likes that he appears to be a 'cool' guy who has turned his life around as it appeared from the outside. She wasn't judging him about his past but hoping she would add good to his future and him to hers. Little did she know that addiction runs deep when not arrested by a pretty young age. She did not take into account that his morals had gone too far south and he was probably not too honest about that with her. I'm making up this story as I go along. I'm thinking Jesse probably wanted to live better, to do better but he failed AGAIN this time at Sandra's expense.
The aspect that really gets to me about this is that she was so glowy and open about how she finally had another person to lean on, who had her back (her words). She seemed so secure about their love, so trusting. If she didn't doubt him, who am I to question her perceptions? I felt happy for her. So to hear this news right after her 'glory' moment, feels almost personal for me. It's causing me to feel negative about trusting another person (as I learned years ago when my heart was broken) but still, I was so happy for her that she could. Her attitude seemed joyous. So much for that feeling - now I'll just return to my skeptic feelings and stay poised for the worst.
