6.3.2014
I remember writing once that I didnt think wed see an October without Lauren. I never imagined that we would see three years pass without answers. Laurens disappearance leaves us with the same intense feelings of loss, hopelessness and despair we felt on June 3, 2011. Even though there have been thousands of tips investigated and dismissed, we are still without answers, still without Lauren.
I couldnt begin to tell you what I miss the most about Lauren. She is always with me. I cannot think of her without the physical pain that wells up just before the tears begin to flow.
Laurens disappearance has impacted many. We have found comfort in the kindness of family, friends and strangers in the wake of incomprehensible pain. We have discovered strength we would never have believed possible.
Many people who knew Lauren have shared their memories. So many have shared the experiences they had while helping search for a young woman they never met. Events have been held, videos created, thoughts shared. People continue to use social media to keep Laurens tragic story alive. Those notes, letters, tweets, Facebook posts, emails are gifts to our family.
This past March we received the following note from someone we had never met. A remarkable gift I share with you here
"I can't help you with any answers, I can't even begin to imagine your agony and grief. What I can give you is just a little glimpse of how special your daughter is, not as if you didn't already know.
I was divorced at the age of 50 and after 10 years as a stay at home Mom in a 20 year marriage. If that wasn't traumatic enough for me, even though I had a very successful early career, with a ten year hole in my resume, no college education and a major recession going on, I couldn't get a job no matter how hard I tried. I was desperate. In 2009 I began my college education at the age of 51. I transferred to Bloomington, where my three older brothers had graduated many years before. I did that without knowing enough about IU, that out of 43,000 students, only 200 were non-traditional, older students like myself. Every day students and faculty gave me "that look" that said, "what the heck is she doing here, she doesn't belong here." People were rude and unfriendly. They said there were 200 non-traditional students, I never saw any of them, I was alone in a sea of teenagers/young adults. I had professors who encouraged me to quit and "find some little job you can do." It was very hard for me, the atmosphere that was totally geared toward 18-22 year olds.
I entered my first day of Psychology class. A class of over 200 very young people. We had assigned seating and my assignment was right beside Lauren. Even the professor, through his microphone, in front of 200 people, pointed me out as the "senior member of the class." It was terrible. But Lauren never treated me that way. We talked about where she was from, what her major was, what her interests were, and what had brought her to Bloomington. She listened some to my story. On days that she couldn't make it to class, she e-mailed me and got my notes. On days I couldn't make it, I e-mailed her and got her notes. Lauren was nice to me at a very difficult time in my life. She never once treated me like the old lady who didn't belong there. I appreciated that so very much.
I think of her often, speak of her often, and wish you the peace of knowing that she's at peace. That's all I can offer. That, and a brief glimpse that you raised your daughter right, she was kind and loving, and not judgmental, and she helped me when I needed help most."
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To those responsible for Laurens disappearance, I hope your loved ones never meet the evil Lauren met on June 3, 2011.
Someone knows the truth and has the answers we desperately seek. If you have any information please contact us.
For those who continue to encourage and support our efforts to find Lauren, we are eternally grateful. Thank you for remembering Lauren.
Just as determined as day one, hoping this is the year we can finally bring Lauren home.
With appreciation,
Charlene Spierer
The world is a dangerous place to live; not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who do nothing about it. Albert Einstein
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