I think at the very least EG and JH were hooking up. He didn’t want to be very specific what was being texted the night she took her life. *shrug*
This story is just nuts and I’m shocked there hasn’t been any movement by DA to address what they DO have on the case with all the main players dead.
Boy am I asking for trouble here.
Some of us have nearly lost children or have lost children. Even when they are older the pain never subsided when you are the parent.
God isn’t a part of what I’m writing today and that’s difficult for me because I believe in him.
JH spent 2/3 of his time at his job trying to improve their economic situation. He had just moved them into a nice little house. I’m not going into details of everything that goes along with that.
We can’t always control emotions and all the reasons we fall in love. EG was at one time a beautiful woman. She was probably good at relations. I’m not going into that here.
She was also many other things. A drug addict who used long term. A. Violent deceitful woman, that all of us her already know the details so I’m not repeating them.
Did JH know? Most of us think he should have. I think somewhere in his mind he did. But denial is pretty powerful when love passion and sex is involved.
Lucas went missing, and JH made an 11 hour trip home to deal with it. I can’t imagine the thoughts he had in that trip.
He was questioned for hours after arriving home. He had to bring EG back to be questioned by le twice and the second or third time she didn’t return home. She was arrested. I can’t think about the muddled thoughts he must have had then.
Denial again.
JH had come so far working so hard to make a better life for his family.
Yes there was violence and that had never been a part of any relationship before and he spent time avoiding it but at times EG was uncontrollable. There was no reconciliation between their apparent love and passion and the violent Emily that exploded.
Today he knows it might be due to withdrawal. She didn’t use meth when he was home, and he didn’t know she stuffed it into herself as soon as he pulled out if the driveway headed to work in New Mexico.
She was high before he reached the on ramp to the interstate a short distance from home. Headed south he made the transition from father and lover to breadwinner during the drive before him. He was working toward a goal and getting EG boys back into their family. That would make her happy and when she was happy allcif the problems would disappear.
We now know that Lucas was dead. EG had put all the scheming details into place. She had driven him into another county under a different jurisdiction under a bridge and probably in water so he would fade away just as she had planned.
For 96 days EG knew exactly where he was. She listened to JH share all the pain he endured. Pain she was responsible for, pain she inflicted on an entire community.
One cell at a time being carried away by water wind and the elements. She most likely knew that he had no damage to his skeleton. The only part if Lucas she had damaged was soft tissue. My guess was she had researched decomposition on the internet. She had to know how long it would take for any abuse evidence to rot away. And I believe she had one of her drug infested buddies check.
EG s admission to the pi was no mistake. She knew there was not enough left of Lucas to prove anything against her.
She still believed she would get out if this with minimal charges maybe abuse Of a corpse or improper disposal of remains.
In the meantime JH was forced to cope with all the massive devastation of losing all hope for his son. The son who fought just to live. The son he had held in his arms and willed to live for months after he had been born.
There would be no 6th birthday celebration for Lucas. He had been dead for 3 months.
The public sentiment became a daily battle to read and ignore. Men try to be strong but I think JH sought isolation to cope with the hundreds of emotions he had to experience.
Every time he appeared social media lit up. And nothing being posted was kind.
There is no instruction book that gives us guidance to deal with the death of a child, and nothing socially acceptable to mourn the cold hard facts of a lover responsible for the ultimate misery she had caused.
Then EG decided to kill herself and she planned that to the most minute detail as well. His house, his gun and the last image of her, brains blown all over.
Most overwhelming was the undoubted realization JH knew. Lucas died at the hand of a drug addled lover he met, fell deeply in love with, and he brought her into his home.
Reconciling the Emily he believed he knew and trusted with the cold hard conniving murderer of his son is nearly to much to bear.
It has now become a part of his very being, something that comes with each breath. The Self imposed guilt has no bars, and he faces public judgement every time he tries to live a normal life.
The barriers JH lives with are worse than any prison. A jail term would hold a release date. There is no release imposed for Lucas being dead. He is gone and Emily will never share the truth.
No one can help him live normally Lucas is forever gone and even memories tainted by guilt.
My question is has he suffered enough?
Guilty or innocent of knowing EG had abused his son, when us the punishment enough? JH will live with all of this every day he’s alive.
JH is in prison forever.
When is enough enough. ????????