Maybe we're over- thinking this. And it's yet another garden variety, tragic unplanned, barely premeditated crime of passion. An argument that escalated, resistance, challenge, the ultimate silencing. But that ostensibly he did love his wife. Great husband up to that moment? Maybe, maybe not.
I was always taught, when you make a mistake, make the next right decision. But some people, when they make the first mistake, double down, and continue making mistakes. An avalanche of wrong turns....
Let's say that he panicked, fearing she'd divorce him, something he didn't think he could live with. And he did something gigantic and grotesque to stop her from saying it. Hands to the neck....
Realizing then there was no turning back....
And everything we've seen since is a dramatic, disorganized attempt to hide what he'd done.
Perhaps the race to gather money isn't the money grab it looks like, maybe there's no hidden debt, no debts to repay, no scores to settle, but he feels (frantic, manic panic) that others, who don't and won't understand, will take everything away from him, hence his rush to gather....
What if, as a huddle of three, he's told a version of the truth to them that paints himself as a victim... didn't mean to, would never have, etc, etc...
People don't know the truth....
Let me tell you what happened....
Maybe there are additional lawyers, to protect their rights to remain silent, lest they be forced to testify against him...
All the searches, all the backlash, maybe what pains him -- maybe this "the worst thing that's ever happened to him" is that people think he's guilty of intentionally murdering his wife, when the reality (in his jumbled mind) is that he didn't mean to...
How many times did Suzanne have to forgive him, I can't help but to wonder....
Maybe there is a similar whole-family forgiveness mantra.... forgive me because I didn't mean to, I'll be a better man/dad, watch me be saved from my old ways.... just forgive me like we know Suzanne would...
Head games, mental gymnastics, to be sure.
But maybe? Maybe he's lashing out because regardless of what he did, he's desperate for people to think he's not capable of doing any such thing. I loved my wife....
Maybe he is slowly discombobulating, still in shock over what he did indeed do, feeling judged by the masses who don't understand.... making worse and worser decisions, genuinely beside himself, and striking a chord in those who know and love him the most... wrongly accursed....
That would earn no sympathy from me, because accident or none, he'd have the power and capacity to lay it bare, to LE, to the media, to Suzanne's family, what he did. And take the lumps.
All very reminiscent of a man who knows he murdered his wife but didn't feel he should be blamed or convicted for it. Because he dint mean-ta. And that's not latin.
Even if ya dint mean-ta, own it. Clear it up. Let's bring this beautiful mom home.
Just some thoughts of my own....
That’s what I get for trying Royal Crown Regal Apple flavor. It’s so delicious btw and smells wonderful. 
