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Friday, September 05, 2008
Caylee - A Loss of Our Innocence
Current mood:
tired
Category: Life
Over the last week I've been pondering...yes pondering...that's when you get into such deep thought you have no choice but to shut everything else out to seek a deeper meaning...as to why so many people feel so effected by Caylee Marie Anthony.
I read so many sincere heartfelt messages from people who truly care for and are touched by Caylee. They tell me how they cannot stop crying for her, stop thinking about her or even just function. I know how that feels. My family knows how it feels. I cannot speak for the Anthony's but I suspect that behind closed doors they know how it feels...at least I hope they do.
And, while she is a beautiful little girl who eminates the Light of the Lord is that what we are really so emotional about? I know Caylee. I held her as a baby. Held up to the Lord and asked Him to bless her when she was only days old. She crawled on our floor and bounced in her little blue chair with the yellow fishes, stars and other bright things while she waved her arms in joy. She sat at our family computer with my wife and laughed the way only an innocent can laugh at a silly animation my wife found online. And, when it was over her eyes said "MORE!" and my wife would continue to play it until it wore Caylee out. She has grown into a little girl with her own thoughts, ideas and emotions. To never know that again or hear that some how the evil of this world has possibly harmed her is HEARTBREAKING. But that's not the only reason we are so sad.
We, all of us, are saddened by the loss of innoncence. Caylee represents innoncence and purity and life. We look into her eyes and we see something we missed along the way or are missing now. We feel the pain of the betrayal of innocence in a World that not only doesn't cherish it but seeks to tarnish it and destroy it. From deep deep inside of us we discover we've lost something along the way - the purity of unconditional love and the need to feel connected to that kind of love. Or worse we are Caylee and someone lost us, betrayed us, forgot us and we have never been healed from that feeling.
For anyone that has come from a broken home or been apart from their families through divorce, separation or anything that takes them away from you, we are struck with a pain and fear that hits too close to home. We imagine all sorts of horrible things because life has taught us to do that. We cannot imagine not treasuring her or protecting her from the harm of this world. We cry for ourselves as we cry for her. We cry for what we've become as people and as a community because there are so many other Caylees out there. She reminds us of how we have failed or been failed by someone we trusted and that cuts deep into our hearts. We can either confront that feeling, reconcile it with the Truth and seek His healing touch OR we can project what we are feeling on another target - Casey.
Please do not get me wrong as I write these blogs. I do not condone nor do I accept Casey's behavior as acceptable. Stealing from friends and family is not acceptable. No matter what the outcome here or how this plays out Casey's choices, in my opinion, put Caylee at risk. Taking her to those parties, a bar, etc. was wrong. Having her sleep in the same bed with you and one of your boyfriends was wrong. Exposing her to that kind of lifestyle and poor choices was wrong. And, anyone who allowed that or enabled it to happen is wrong as well. If Caylee was a perfectly clean new hard drive in a computer waiting for the programming of life and Casey was her programmer as her mother we can see where that would eventually take her. No, I am not a supporter of Casey's choices and she knows that. But that's not what this is really about is it? You pass Caylees in the supermarket cart of an alcoholic stocking up on beer and wine. We pass endangered innocents everyday. We have a judicial system and laws of the land that will sort that out and later on there is a Heavenly Judge who will have the Final Say.
I believe, this commnunity and this society is angry at Casey because they are afraid. They are afraid of what could be. Afraid of what might be. Afraid of never knowing why, where or how. Afraid because they do not understand. Afraid that even when the answers come they will not understand or, worse, understand all too well. We are afraid of what could be in us, around us and for the grace of God could be us. We fear the darkness around us and the potential for darkness in us.
I've heard Casey being called a "monster" and what they do not realize is that we are all "monsters" at one time or another. One of the definitions of the word monster is someone or something that deviates from normal, acceptable behavior. So, that time we drank too much and got behind a wheel of a car to endanger ourselves and others, whether we had an accident or not we were a monster. When we got cut off in traffic and yelled, screamed, cursed and chased after the person that did it we were a monster. Any time we do anything that causes us to deviate from normal, acceptable behavior we enter an area of the unknown and become monsters. Monsters dwell in the dark for a reason....they frighten people as well being afraid of the light. And, we want them to stay that way - in the darkness. The glare of instant media and news has brought them out into the light and it frightens us. We are no longer asked if we have heard about that horrible story. We are asked if we saw it and maybe even saw it while it was happening. We are forced to confront the darkness of our lives and it frightens us and fascinates us as well.
We look at the images of Caylee or anyone of the many thousands of missing children and something happens inside of us that remninds us we live in a world where there is darkness. A darkness so ugly we cannot fathom it. We are outraged that no one protected her from that darkness and willingly volunteer to do so. Yet, the sad truth is we fail the innocents of this world more then we succeed. The is only One who cannot fail and we are not Him. We cannot come close to Him in that regard and therefore we come face to face with our greatest fear - ourselves.
But there is an answer and that answer is a Heavenly Father and His Glorious Son who can overcome the darkness around us and the darkness in us. He can make it all right. So, I want to leave you with a You Tube video of a Dennis Jernigan song that has touched my heart today. Let it touch yours.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F29-AYDmSnI
Friday, September 05, 2008
Caylee - A Loss of Our Innocence
Current mood:
Category: Life
Over the last week I've been pondering...yes pondering...that's when you get into such deep thought you have no choice but to shut everything else out to seek a deeper meaning...as to why so many people feel so effected by Caylee Marie Anthony.
I read so many sincere heartfelt messages from people who truly care for and are touched by Caylee. They tell me how they cannot stop crying for her, stop thinking about her or even just function. I know how that feels. My family knows how it feels. I cannot speak for the Anthony's but I suspect that behind closed doors they know how it feels...at least I hope they do.
And, while she is a beautiful little girl who eminates the Light of the Lord is that what we are really so emotional about? I know Caylee. I held her as a baby. Held up to the Lord and asked Him to bless her when she was only days old. She crawled on our floor and bounced in her little blue chair with the yellow fishes, stars and other bright things while she waved her arms in joy. She sat at our family computer with my wife and laughed the way only an innocent can laugh at a silly animation my wife found online. And, when it was over her eyes said "MORE!" and my wife would continue to play it until it wore Caylee out. She has grown into a little girl with her own thoughts, ideas and emotions. To never know that again or hear that some how the evil of this world has possibly harmed her is HEARTBREAKING. But that's not the only reason we are so sad.
We, all of us, are saddened by the loss of innoncence. Caylee represents innoncence and purity and life. We look into her eyes and we see something we missed along the way or are missing now. We feel the pain of the betrayal of innocence in a World that not only doesn't cherish it but seeks to tarnish it and destroy it. From deep deep inside of us we discover we've lost something along the way - the purity of unconditional love and the need to feel connected to that kind of love. Or worse we are Caylee and someone lost us, betrayed us, forgot us and we have never been healed from that feeling.
For anyone that has come from a broken home or been apart from their families through divorce, separation or anything that takes them away from you, we are struck with a pain and fear that hits too close to home. We imagine all sorts of horrible things because life has taught us to do that. We cannot imagine not treasuring her or protecting her from the harm of this world. We cry for ourselves as we cry for her. We cry for what we've become as people and as a community because there are so many other Caylees out there. She reminds us of how we have failed or been failed by someone we trusted and that cuts deep into our hearts. We can either confront that feeling, reconcile it with the Truth and seek His healing touch OR we can project what we are feeling on another target - Casey.
Please do not get me wrong as I write these blogs. I do not condone nor do I accept Casey's behavior as acceptable. Stealing from friends and family is not acceptable. No matter what the outcome here or how this plays out Casey's choices, in my opinion, put Caylee at risk. Taking her to those parties, a bar, etc. was wrong. Having her sleep in the same bed with you and one of your boyfriends was wrong. Exposing her to that kind of lifestyle and poor choices was wrong. And, anyone who allowed that or enabled it to happen is wrong as well. If Caylee was a perfectly clean new hard drive in a computer waiting for the programming of life and Casey was her programmer as her mother we can see where that would eventually take her. No, I am not a supporter of Casey's choices and she knows that. But that's not what this is really about is it? You pass Caylees in the supermarket cart of an alcoholic stocking up on beer and wine. We pass endangered innocents everyday. We have a judicial system and laws of the land that will sort that out and later on there is a Heavenly Judge who will have the Final Say.
I believe, this commnunity and this society is angry at Casey because they are afraid. They are afraid of what could be. Afraid of what might be. Afraid of never knowing why, where or how. Afraid because they do not understand. Afraid that even when the answers come they will not understand or, worse, understand all too well. We are afraid of what could be in us, around us and for the grace of God could be us. We fear the darkness around us and the potential for darkness in us.
I've heard Casey being called a "monster" and what they do not realize is that we are all "monsters" at one time or another. One of the definitions of the word monster is someone or something that deviates from normal, acceptable behavior. So, that time we drank too much and got behind a wheel of a car to endanger ourselves and others, whether we had an accident or not we were a monster. When we got cut off in traffic and yelled, screamed, cursed and chased after the person that did it we were a monster. Any time we do anything that causes us to deviate from normal, acceptable behavior we enter an area of the unknown and become monsters. Monsters dwell in the dark for a reason....they frighten people as well being afraid of the light. And, we want them to stay that way - in the darkness. The glare of instant media and news has brought them out into the light and it frightens us. We are no longer asked if we have heard about that horrible story. We are asked if we saw it and maybe even saw it while it was happening. We are forced to confront the darkness of our lives and it frightens us and fascinates us as well.
We look at the images of Caylee or anyone of the many thousands of missing children and something happens inside of us that remninds us we live in a world where there is darkness. A darkness so ugly we cannot fathom it. We are outraged that no one protected her from that darkness and willingly volunteer to do so. Yet, the sad truth is we fail the innocents of this world more then we succeed. The is only One who cannot fail and we are not Him. We cannot come close to Him in that regard and therefore we come face to face with our greatest fear - ourselves.
But there is an answer and that answer is a Heavenly Father and His Glorious Son who can overcome the darkness around us and the darkness in us. He can make it all right. So, I want to leave you with a You Tube video of a Dennis Jernigan song that has touched my heart today. Let it touch yours.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F29-AYDmSnI