When I first happened upon Websleuths, the very 1st thread had barely begun... there were only a few pages. Not realizing I was going to become so attached, I read and read... researched and researched... making notes upon notes. Then I started seeing where I could possibly make a contribution... so I signed up and became a member here. I was Blessed to have had one brief encounter with Abraham, and I wanted to know where he was... what happened... and why... why?
At first, I didn't understand how all of this worked... I was very reluctant to post... and I think my very first post was deleted LOL. Wasn't long and I became more comfortable... was accepted by others... helped by others... corrected by others... comforted by others... befriended by others... looked out for by others... and have grown close with others in all of this. It's a different kind of closeness, one I've never endeavored upon before... but close nonetheless. This, I cherish close to my heart. I've been disliked by others too... and that's ok, no hardended feelings here. Our reason for all of this... we care... that is the important part.
Having nothing less than my whole entire heart and soul in this journey... purpose driven... heart driven... I realized these past couple of days that there has been a further, deeper, purpose for me... one of growth... one of healing... one of immense gratitude. Constantly growing gratitude for life, love, and laughter... even more gratitude for the little tiny moments that so often go unnoticed. Like that one powerful handshake, that I shared here... and how I related it to the song, "What If He's An Angel". Yes, Abraham Lee Shakespeare is an Angel... and he walks amongst us, but in a different way now.
Towards the beginning of my journey here, I kept wondering, asking, silently pondering... "Why Abraham?" Why this simple, kind, warm, loving, fallible, humorous, giving, generous man... Why this son, brother, father, friend... just why... tell me why...
Then it hit me, it was the same answer as I got... the answer to my asking, "Why me?", with another area of my own life. The answer was so simple... that it made my jaw drop, my heart pound, my eye's fill with tears... but my eyes opened wider and brighter again... the "why?"... and the answer...
There really is true purpose in the answer... even though the surrounding circumstances are so complex, the answer is actually as simple as... "Why not?"
If it weren't for Abraham's life, all the rest of the mess would not be exposed... the people who have wronged others, for years, would continue to go on to wrong many many others, for years to come. Through the loss and sadness of Abraham, can come life, love and laughter again. I believe and trust that others can relate... I know I can... I can relate, in a different way... living with a very rare disease... through me, there are doctor's and scientists... researchers around the globe, learning things that are saving others' lives... saving a baby... saving a mother, a father... a son, a daughter... a friend... so that they don't have to go through the pain... I already did it for them... and it's been worth every minute of it.
Somebody told me, along my way, that nobody said it would be easy... but that it would be worth it. They couldn't have spoken words more true. I hear those words, over and over, each and every single time that I encounter another obstacle.
During my time here, with Websleuths, I did encounter another obstacle... but this time I found it to be very different... I've embraced it, rather than fight it... I've found courage to carry on, rather than give up... I found love, rather than discord... I found peace, rather than discomfort... I found ease, rather than fear... I found faith to endure, rather than doubt... I found Abraham, walking by my side... he's holding hands with my Dad and my 3 brothers... he has that heart warming smile... he's calm and at peace.
I pray that Abraham's family and friend's will find the answer to "why?"
That all of you have found, or will find this too.
I Trust... Through pain, there can be purpose... there can be joy!
Walking With Angels
With Love and Thanks,
~I aM I aNd yoU aRe yoU~
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