http://s1189.photobucket.com/albums/z421/amylynn34/Zahra Memorial November 13 2010/ I am such a ditz. I have lived in Caldwell County all my life, and grew up going to the "big town" of Hickory to shop, out to eat, etc. But I have NEVER got used to all the stupid street names in Hickory and the directions. This afternoon me and my family went out to eat in Hickory and then went on journey to find 21 21st St. NW and it took us awhile. We went "into town" and "downtown" to look for some kind of memorial that I could contribute. We had no luck. So we went looking for the house anyway so if I had to come back by myself I would be able to find it easy. I went all around town and "Clark Tire" wear I told Zahra's house was. Well I was looking downtown, instead of "Viewmont". Dummy me!! But I happened upon it by accident because I had wondered over to Hobby Lobby in Viewmont and then I noticed a Clark Tire, and then the Bistro that was talked about and then I saw 20th St. NW. So we turned down this street and wondered around until we finally ended up on 21 St. NW. It was a winding road with gorgeous, huge homes. As I started up the hill I saw a bunch of cars and knew that had to be it. I had finally found Zahra's last "resting place." As you can see from the pics, there are lots and lots of memorials for her. I also noticed how everyone was quiet or whispering. No one was loud or hateful. We were all there for one purpose, Zahra. I thought I would break down with all the crying I had been doing for this child, but I just teared up a little. It was on the way home that I cried. My sweet dd, who is 9, wants to come back and leave one of her treasured stuffed animals to "give to Zahra". There were a few cards addressed to Emilie. I hope they are nice and not accusing to her. She is the only one in this whole mess who has shown ANY emotion. I almost wish I would of seen her so I could give her a great big hug and tell her about WS and how much we love and have prayed for her. I think I have decided I will go back on her birthday after I get out of class. I am still thinking of letting some purple balloons go, as a way of releasing her from "myself", IYKWIM?