JA Mother would carry a wooden kitchen spoon, my brother and I if we were misbehaving she would use it on use . . . it felt pretty hard, it left welts . . . . when Dad hit you with the best . . . did that leave welts on your body?Objection - sustained rephrase My Dad was very intimidating - my mom didn't carry that fear factor with her so actually her blows hurt the most . . . these were frequent and intense? It would go from 4 times per week to once a week . . . . lived in Selinas . . . . before left Selinas went to a public school - had circle of friends, my brother had his own circle of friends, we were in activities, I began to get into art, read books , piano lessons, brother learned the flute, . . . . I liked to color with Crayolas - my older sister had colors - she had the big box . . . . I would love coloring books and I would take an interest in art -I couldn't draw but I could color . . . the beatings from my Mom continued - they began to increase . . . . frequency and severity increased . . . . my brother and I would squirm and they would increase . . . my Mom broke a blood vessle in my his hand - I don't think she meant to . . . . . My Dad's beatings were getting worse too all through teenage years . . . . Tell me how you felt being beaten by your Mom . . . . .....es (agrees) I still loved her Dad never beat me with his fists . . . he would push me around, one time I hit a door post . . .. (?) . . . . . door frame or door post as you described it . . . age 16 or 17 being pushed into furniture or piano . . . nothin to it? Did this happen a lot . . . not as often with my Dad as with my Mom . . . . sometimes I got grounded . . . . the beatings were getting less frequent but more intense harder . . . . . moved from selenas age 11 - to Santa Maria . . . .Dad started pushing JA into furniture - 6th, 7th and 8th grade - went to school with Karl . . . interests @ that point JA was focused on making new friends . . . . 6th grade went to elementary school . . . then jr high or middle school . . . . . Grade school years had interest in art , . . . don't remember so much in 6th grade focusing so much in art, but I took an art class one or 2 years 7th grade . . . had a teacher who took and interest in me . . . .my parents felt "lukewarm" about it. . . I was getting praise from teachers and friends. not really got encouragement from my parents .. . . By that time in your life you were used to your parents not fostering your interests? . . . objection leading . . . . went to high school - in 8th grade we moved to Yreka, Yreka Union High School . . . grades 9 thru 10 . . . sorry thru 12 . . . entered freshman year . . . starting off at a new school gain in high school . . . how far Yreka from Santa Maria . . . . SElinas to Yreka 7 hrs then another 3 hrs South . . .10 hrs My Mom had a friend who had a daughter going to high school in Yreka . . . so I knew her . . . The beatins and pushing into furniture . . . . happened during high school years. . . . .there were few things happened . . . . . just before we moved my friends and I wanted to go out . . . snuck out Dad found out . . . . he woke me up and I was disoriented from being asleep . . . . he asked me and when I didn't give him a satisfactory answer he slapped me open handed across the face . . . . . again, . . .. again . . .. . Dad is 5'11" He used to bench press 520# . . . he had a bow flex - solar flex from the 80's he went to the gym frequently . . .. Mom knew he hit me when she saw it . . . . . Mom's beating with wooden spoon . . . . she started using whatever available . . . brush . . . she had acryllic nails so she would dig those into me . . . In high school, I was getting my drivers license, traveled abroad to Costa rica to get better in speaking Spanish . . . . had a large circle of friends but no one that I was really close with . . . Art moved from Crayon stage . . . . Grandma had some oil paints . . . . started painting - oil smeared - went to Michaels got some paints . . . . I worked as a server for my Dad who opened a resteraunt . . . it is now Italian but back then . . . . Dad put me on a few afternoons and the weekends . . . Did you graduate highschool? No i didn't . . . at the time I . . . .about 3 months . . well it's kind of complicated . . . . ok lets talk about it . . . where were you living when you dropped out of high school? I was living with my boyfirend @ the time about 6 miles out of Yreka . . . I was tired of the discipline . . . .I was 3 months before 18 . . . .I skipped a period to study for an exam . . . . I went to Riteaid parking lot, small town . . . .my Dad found me - grounded me until I was 18 . . . . the end of your senior year of highschool ? My Junior year . . . I finished my Junior year with D's and F's - I let it all fall apart . . Grounded in my house meant no phone, no social, no going anywhere, you are grounded to your room . . . .. I was going to wait until I was 18 to move in with my boyfriend . . . I just moved in with him . . . I had bills to pay now . . car insurance . . . . My boyfriend named Bobby Juarez . . . . he was 3 years older than me . . . out of high school -he had never been employed by that time . . . .I first me him the first summer I was in Yreka . . . . I was with my Mom's friend's daughter . . . . he was caught my eye . . . . it was July or August . . . triple digits temperature . . . . black suit, white color . . . he was on crutches . . . goth 18th century . . . . State Fair my friends and I were going to get on the Zipper . . . I didn't want to get on . . . . caught his eye and he motioned for me to come over . . . . .in a very kind way he asked me. . . . .Objection - hearsay He invited me to go on the Zipper with him . . .we went on 1 ride. . .we parted . . . didn't see him again for awhile . . . Oct of that year I was @ a homecoming football game . . . . I walked up to him . . . we exchanged names, told him my phone number and he remembered and called . . . .he was dating another girl at the time . the girl broke up with him . . a period of time we were both single. . . we were talking more and more, that year when I was a freshman we decided to become boyfriend and girlfriend . . . . he was out of high school . . . not working . . . being boyfriend and girlfriend - I didn't have a car or drivers license - I was going to get my permit . . . there was a gas station Arco and he would play video games and we would meet there and hang out and hold hands that kind of thing . . . we stayed together for awhile . . .at age 15 I felt the relationship was getting very intense . . . he wanted to move to san francisco and had all kinds of wild ideas . . . he entertained the belief in vampires. . . I used to read Ann Rice novels at the time . . . it was just and idea . . . . Vampires . . .yes we could live together and be together forever . . . . . Broke up with him over the phone - Aunt Lisa was there . . . . my parents were not there . . . Lisa wanted to leave . . . I had to abruptly end the phone call . . . .I guess he didn't take it that well . . . what do you mean? . . . .Objection! Approach!