I think the DT is pitching a fit because she has a Plan C, which she has announced and will not tell them what it is. She has refused to allow her "loved ones" to testify because she is clicking her secret plan into motion. Nurmi and Wilmott are bumping into each other trying to save their own careers. She is now the last thing on their minds. I think her secret plan is to change her defense strategy at the last possible moment, when she has no risk of cross-examination. I suspect she's going to say that she is stepping away from the traditional mediation testimony. She's going to tell them that she isn't going to insult their intelligence by talking about her work with domestic violence victims or her art, her singing talent or the help she gave her grandmother in the garden. What she is now going to tell them is what has actually happened in this trial. She'll say she's aware that they think she's a liar and she doesn't blame them, but there is an explanation and she always knew the truth would come out. Now is the time for that truth-- that the fog lifted during the trial and she remembered the horrific details of the death of Travis Alexander. She told her attorneys that her memory had returned and she now realized that she had "snapped." She will remind them that Nurmi mentioned her possibly snapping during closing arguments--that's what he was alluding to. Unfortunately, at the time the fog lifted, she had a meeting with her defense team and they told her it was too late to change her defense. She would have to keep the self-defense defense and hope for the best. "I struggled terribly with this," ladies and gentlemen, "I wanted to tell you the truth!" Mr. Nurmi had to keep reminding me in his questions that I couldn't remember... it has been SO HARD to be forced to keep lying to you. Now that I am going to be sentenced to death--and I know you will give me the death penalty-- I don't care what he or Ms. Wilmott think. I want to go to my grave with a pure heart knowing I told the truth in this court and before God. When Travis had sex with me, I thought for sure he would take me to Cancun and we would continue having the occasional travel-with-benefits like we did before. He would have other girlfriends, like back then, but I was the only one he slept with and I was the only one he took on these trips. It worked great because mostly no one from the ward saw us and Travis could keep up appearances. That was the deal we had. I figured we'd each find eternal companions eventually and repent and both of us would marry other people, and like I said to (friend), our children would play together. But Travis had developed this sick pattern of being very mean to me after we had sex. Like he was disgusted with himself and had contempt for me. He was saying these terrible things about me, calling me names and saying he never wanted to see my ugly face --RIGHT AFTER WE HAD SEX MIND YOU--and I just couldn't take it. I snapped. The knife was right there and I grabbed it and then all the anger I had been stuffing for all those months of him leading a double life --all that hypocrisy of teaching people how to better themselves like he was all that...well, it came out in a boiling rage. I now remember stabbing him and dragging him and I am horrified at what I did. When I calmed down, I tried to put him out of his suffering with a bullet because what else could I do for him? He was dying! Ladies and gentlemen, that is the truth. I don't blame Mr. Nurmi or Ms. Wilmott--they were only trying to help me with their legal knowledge, but at some point, you have to own what you have done. I loved Travis ALexander and I killed him. I can't change that and I am sorry for putting you through this ridiculous trial. I thank you in advance for giving me my freedom and the opportunity to be with Travis again.