I started to go to her "living Hell", I mean house, last night but there were so many reporters and others there that I decided against it. I heard there is going to be a public memorial for her on Tuesday, her birthday, but I know there will be hundreds of people there not to mention I have school all day that day. I am also a little bit socially backwards so I would of been uncomfortable. But I really feel the need to do something for her instead of just praying. I keep having this thought of releasing a bunch of purple balloons as if personally releasing Zahra and all the emotions this case has brought me to the heavens. I have thought of going to the place on Christie Road to do it, but I just can't bring myself to go to those places where her bones were found. I think it would too hard to try and "let go" in such a place as that. I wish I knew of park or place that Zahra loved to go and run so I could go there and do this personal memorial for her. Does anyone have any ideas?