I believe the messages she sent prior to baby C’s collapse show how she was attempting to emotionally manipulate her colleague IMO..
A message sent to Letby on June 13, at 9.48pm, says: "You ok? x"
Letby replies: "I just keep thinking about Mon. Feel like I need to be in [neonatal unit room] 1 to overcome it, but [nursing colleague] said no x"
The colleague responds: "I agree with her, don't think it will help. You need a break from full-on ITU, you need to let it go or it will eat you up..."
Letby responds: "Not the vented baby necessarily, I just feel I need to be in 1, to get the image out of my head."
Letby adds: "It probably sounds odd but it's how I feel x"
The colleague responds: "Well it's up to you but I don't think it's going to help."
After further messages are exchanged, the colleague suggests: "Why don't you go in 1 for a bit?"
Letby responds: "Yeah, I have done a couple of meds in 1."
Letby later adds: "Forget I said anything, I will be fine, it's part of the job. Just don't feel like there is much team spirit tonight x"
^^^ IMO this attempt at emotional manipulation did not work, she was IMO trying to get someone on her side so she could then say ‘even (colleague) agrees it would be good for me to be in room 1’ in the hope she’d get her own way. Unfortunately it backfired and her colleague didn’t agree with her. Upon realising that she’s not going to agree LL abruptly ends the conversation by saying ‘forget I said anything’, and addsabout there not being ‘much team spirit’ instead, her colleague responds saying ‘I won’t forget’. This response IMO if guilty may have bruised her ego. If guilty, LL realising that she isn’t in control of the situation as her colleague will not be coerced with her manipulation, maybe in her frustration at not getting her own way could have taken her anger out on baby C who collapsed minutes later in an act of defiance to establish power and control.
All MOO