This one really hurts.
They all hurt :/
Out of hundreds of millions of adults, there are bound to be men too broken to understand what they are doing, or men too selfish to care if they hurt others ... but for the children who have to endure it, that doesn't matter.
For Lizzie, or all the others, it doesn't matter.
They are children. They are supposed to grow up believing in magic.
They are supposed to, for at least a few more years past 5, believe their parents can protect them. In most cases they can ... but in cases like this?
This one hurts because its so completely senseless. Because the parents couldn't have known. The perp went and played video games and drank with the victims family. Asked to crash on their couch. And then at some point, murdered their little girl.
He didn't legitimately cover his tracks, he wasn't acting or behaving rationally in concealing what he did ... and for some reason that, the senselessness and lack of awareness, seems to make it so much harder for me. Like if he'd been more aware, Lizzie would still be alive. So is his lack of awareness the only reason she's gone? That's ... absolutely horrible.
I do believe we are getting better. Statistically the safety of our children is a historical phenomenon. But it's not enough. It's not enough for Lizzie, or for the little ones who are alive today, and won't be next month because they happen to be related to a broken sociopath.
So yeah. Im really struggling. My littles are asleep, safe in their beds, as Lizzie should be. I mourn for her family and I mourn for what these tragedies represent for all of us. God ... I mourn for her. For the 6th birthday she won't have. For the silly drawings, the first crushes, for the warm summer days. I just wish we could all believe in magic a little longer.