To the Survivor Warrior,
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us - strangers to you. That is not only brave, it is enormously helpful to our understanding of this awful person's MO. Your cooperation with LE is even more important and I am grateful that you came forward to inform them about AA's past transgressions.
I sincerely hope that you will find talking to others to be a healing and empowering experience. This is something that happened to you, that you never sought out. AA deceived you by pretending to be a decent human being who had a normal but not manipulative or abusive interest in you, only to take off his mask abruptly once you trusted him enough to relax. You survived that betrayal of trust and a crime against your person, and began repairing your life only to learn that later another young woman did not.
Survivor's guilt is a common phenomenon, and it takes time, and sometimes professional help, to work through. I hope you have people in your life who can support you through this, but please know that I and others here support you as well. You did nothing wrong, and your actions afterward – all of them – were what you needed to do at that time to continue functioning while you processed and healed from severe trauma. None of AA's actions are your doing, or your responsibility.
Best wishes to you for your continued healing. If ever your participation here, or our questions, become too intense for you, don't hesitate to say so or to step away. You are not obligated to answer our questions or to be here, but if you want to be, we are in your corner as you continue to move through life and discover how strong and resourceful you are.
