'I don't know how many times I've buried Natalee,' Dave Holloway says
By Carol Robinson -
crobinson@al.com
on May 24, 2015 at 7:15 AM, updated May 24, 2015 at 7:16 AM
May 30 will mark a decade since 18-year-old Natalee Holloway vanished from the idyllic Caribbean island of Aruba.
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"I guess most people do look at anniversaries, but I still think about it every day,'' said her father, Dave Holloway. "That's something you'll never get out of your mind."
"The emotional trauma has a way of healing, and a person doesn't realize it until time goes on," he said. "When something comes up significant, you fall back down into that emotional state of trauma. I try to avoid those things as much as I can."
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Earlier this month, Holloway returned to Aruba yet another time, chasing a lead after a man named Jurrien De Jong told Holloway and Inside Edition that he saw Joran van der Sloot chase her into a small building under construction. De Jong said he never went to the police because he was involved in illegal activities at the time. He says he has come forward now because of a recent TV report where van der Sloot claims he was part of an undercover operation in which Holloway was buried at sea. Prosecutors in Aruba have dismissed De Jong's claims, saying his claims couldn't be true because the building to which he referred had not been built at that time.
Even before his trek back to Aruba, along with private investigator TJ Ward and a cadaver dog, Holloway said he was reluctant to get up his hopes. "I don't know how many times I've buried Natalee,'' he told AL.com, "and I don't want to go through that again."
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"The answers lie in Peru and Aruba,'' Holloway said. "Those three (van der Sloot and the Kalpoe brothers) know exactly what happened. And nobody's ever gotten anything out of them."
He said he has considered a face-to-face meeting with van der Sloot, looking him in the eyes and demanding answers from him. "I still hold out hope that with hard prison life, maybe he'll change,'' Holloway says. "I don't think at this point and time he's ready to do anything, but we'll probably one day make a trip to Peru."
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