Thank you to the Websleuthers who posted these letters in their entirety. I could only handle highlights.
Caylee is now five years old and both you have been missing from my life for over two years now, but not one day goes by where I don't feel or see the love we all shared. Hang on to that. It's one of the few things that keeps me going.
Funny how God works his little blessings and turns them into larger ones. He will always make things more clear as time passes. He has a way of turning any tragedy into a wonderful learning experience and opportunity for personal growth.
(Is this what Cindy thinks/feels about Caylee's death? Wow. I guess good for her. I would still be raging and or crying and throwing up all day.) To each their own, huh?
Just know how much you are loved and even though I may not write that often that I think of you every moment and I talk to you everyday.
My sincerest apologies for not writing sooner. It's just so difficult now to write and be so aware that every word said or not said will be analyzed, criticized and plaster all over the internet and news stations. (skip) I'm so aware that I can't even mention a friend or family member without putting them in jeopardy or being harassed by bloggers or media.
(So, Cindy is aware of what happens when she makes statements about people(JG, RG and RK)in public and the media? Too bad she only cares about some people and not others).
I love you Casey and because of that love no matter how rough the day gets for me I find peace in knowing that you are innocent and the sooner you get out the sooner we can get to the truth about Caylee. She is a constant on my heart and my mind as I now she is on yours. She will never be forgotten and the truth of her disappearance will be my focus until I die. I have barely slept in two years and my prayers each night is for answers. God has spoken to me many times and I know that you will be home soon.
(She has barely slept but she has been on a cruise, been on a media blitz, eaten at the Ritz, gotten a tattoo, keeps her appearance up to date, has bought all kinds of jewelery, planned a memorial...etc.)
Its been so long and every moment that I spend away form you a little more of me dies. I feel that as each day passes that you are isolated form me that I can see you slipping away. Don't let this make you into someone that you are not. I know first hand what it's done to me.
(So, is that the excuse Cindy? This(you mean the brutal murder of Caylee?)has made her(Cindy)into someone she is not? Is that a confession?)
I know they think that eventually people will stop writing you, they want to cut you off form everyone because they are still waiting for you to crack. I will not let that happen. Lee was right all along that they would do this to you. You are blessed to have so many devoted people who believe in you.
My mom and I were talking about how beautiful Caylee would be for her 5th birthday. We both think she'd look just like you. I was looking at some of your pictures at the age, the only difference you had that adorable gap between your front teeth.
(Passive aggressive much?)
We are trying to plan a quiet birthday celebration for her. Not sure yet what we'll do. Lee and Mal will celebrate with us.
I'll let Jose know what I decide so he can tell you.
(Trying? Statement analysis...trying is not doing and how hard is it to plan a birthday "celebration" for a little girl who cannot attend? :furious: BBM-more of Cindy's need for total control and imo Cindy letting Casey know that she is still making the important decisions about Caylee.)
Just because I don't agree with them on who took her from me, doesn't mean I am not a victim in this.
(Sorry, imo-yes it does. That is exactly why Cindy cannot be seen as a victim in my humble opinion. Because she does not agree on who took her)
No one wants justice for her more than I do.(Shouldn't Casey?) I will not rest(Cindy underlines "rest" three times)ever until that happens.
I'm still not sleeping and can't remember when the last time I had a full nights sleep(the Dr's never gave her anything to sleep?)-probably when both my girls were home.(Cindy still sees Caylee as her child) I miss our evenings cuddling on your bed. :sick:
I put your bedroom back the way it was before and I really like it much better. (Cindy likes it better that way, Casey...) It looks much bigger. I still see Caylee's finger and face prints on your mirrors. (
I am sorry but these have to be digs in on Casey for killing Caylee...)
You really are very photogenic and I can't remember you taking a bad pic. (Um, how about the tattoo pic she had to have taken while in jail? Or the mug shot? Cindy can't remember ICA taking a bad pic? How about the ones where she is being led to jail after being accused of murdering Caylee Marie? No? Oh, okay. :crazy: )
(Cindy speaking of the dogs)
They always wait for me then follow me in and lay on top of me. I don't really mind. It reminds me of falling asleep with Caylee. She always had to be touching me. They just don't smell as good as she always did! (First, this shows how amazing animals are with their ability to love anyone. B, Is Cindy really bringing up "smell" and "Caylee" in this letter? Tell tale heart, anyone? Out damn spot!
Keep your faith and don't ever lose your loving, gentle nature. I know its hard not to be bitter at this point in your life but God has you in his sight and he will bring you though this storm. (Cliche' sentiments you would send to a pen pal who lives far away and in whom you do not see much).
When spring comes and your trial is over we will find her together.(Why or why are you not looking now!?) :banghead: :loser: I continue to seek her and continue to have every hope that we will all be reunited soon. (So, is Caylee alive or not Cindy? If you are to be reunited "soon" what does that mean? How can you and Casey reunited with someone who is no longer on this earth?) Why would you write that you are waiting for the trial to be over to look for Caylee? Why! ?
Don't let all the games the state's attys office is playing to get to you. In the end they will all have to face up to what they are doing. All their twisting of the truth(you are now entering the twilight zone) and purposely leaving out statements or evidence will eventually bite them in the rear. I know that when the trial comes your team will blow all of their theories up in their faces.(Such violent images/description)Side note Horace just crapped on the living room floor. I just saw him do it.
Anyway your cat is so spoiled. (Message!)
(Pure narcissism below: translation "I am having fun in jeans that you wish you were having and my life is bella vita since you've been gone, I guess God did have a way of turning tragedy into opportunity...for Cindy.)
Well I have to tell you(why? exactly does she have to tell Casey this as she sits facing the death penalty), your mother is still a bit of a daredevil(enough to have helped cover up for your daughter?). We went to Tennessee two weeks ago with Donna's family. Her sister lives in Chattanooga, the mountains there are so beautiful. Anyway her house is on a hill and the driveway is extremely long and steep. Well there was this turtle riding toy and I had to try it out.(It didn't make you sick that if Caylee was there she would be riding it, sick enough to not want to ride it? Okay.) Needless to say it went fast and when I tried to stop I flew in the air(where else would you fly?)and landed on my left hip and took a chunk of skin off my right elbow.
Thank God I had jeans on or I wouldn't have any meat on my thigh either. I ended up with a softball size lump and a football size bruise on my thigh. Still swollen and bruised. My elbow is finally starting to fill in-thus I wore a sweater on Thursday to court so someone couldn't say anything about it. (I wonder if Cindy ever thought this much about what Caylee endured? Cindy spends more time thinking about her injuries than she ever spent on what happened to Caylee. And, imo this whole story is so Cindy can let Casey know she was/is/can wear jeans. Some people have this thing about fitting into jeans, it is some kind of badge of honor. :sick: )
Little miss WITCHY pooh from channel 9 would have concockted one of her stupid stories. (Stupid stories, Cindy? Really? Casey and Cindy are the queen and princess of stupid stories, please. And does "someone"(Cindy)think she is so important that even her scabs will be payed attention to? Maybe if they were on her knees...did I just say that? :innocent: :floorlaugh:
I heard Cheney put her in her place the other day. (LINK Please!) I told her the same thing in October 2008.
I am sorry this is so short. I'm kinda tired. Hope you're feeling ok.
...js...