Others here have said similar things in praise of "A.R"., but I hope at the right time someone will show you this message:
A.,
You are a real hero. In the old movies and t.v. shows you'd be called "brave, courageous and bold". However, you are more than that, because those were fictional heroes, actors with scripts written out for them. You are brave and have done more than most adults would have been able to do. All of us here are a mixture of good, bad, and neutral things, but doing as tough a thing as you did, making your statement, shows such strength and is something everyone would admire!
GoodAim