Then I am in BIG trouble! I watch true crime shows, read Ann Rule, and participate in these forums on a regular basis.
As someone who enjoys reading fiction books and a sometimes writer, I also sometimes think of ways a real life person could have done it better, (not that I WANT them to, but...it's interesting to think about!)
For me, a big part of it, is just learning about human nature, the darker side of it. I enjoy watching liars try to squirm and writhe their way out of their (obvious to everyone but them) lies.
I also believe in justice, and read and watch so much, so that maybe, in some small way, I can make a difference someday. In a weird way, I also feel I owe it to the victims of these creeps to learn about them (the victims) who they are (or were, most often...), their dreams, their quirks, their less than perfect human side, and what factors played into them becoming victims to their particular perpetrators.
I don't think we'll ever understand people who seem to have no heart; people like Diane Downs and others like her. But knowing how they operate, and how they react to things, can make us just a bit more wary and prepared should we ever run across one like her. (hopefully)
But yeah, I guess if I'm ever charged or even suspected of murder (God forbid) they'll have a field day with my computers! *lol*
Me, too. I've covered some horrible crimes. I watch tons of true crime shows-hey, how else can you clean the kitchen, load the dishwasher, fold laundry (all booooring) without something to occupy your mind? :waitasec:
And I also do research, and sometimes on weird things. Man, if someone ever tracks my TV watching and my computer, I'm in for real trouble. Then there's the hundreds of books, including several on crime, forensics (the nitty gritty), and police work. I can't write without researching. And I'm always curious.
One thing I've been struggling with is the idea that a mom could plan to do something horrible to Kyron, and not only that, but she could find a friend to help out. I'm still not quite over the horror of Susan Smith. How she could strap those babies in and then send them into the water--chills me to the bone.
When I first saw her on TV, all boo hoo, I thought--she's lying. But knowing that people react differently to stress and grief, especially when in shock, I decided to wait for more evidence. Then she came up with that Southern standard excuse "some black guy did it."
And that sealed it for me. But even given her case, and that of others, I just don't know how we get from the involved mom, taking all those pictures, doing all those activities, to the Lucretia Borgia of Portland. T
The weird thing is that I'm easily able to believe males doing something terrible to kids. Then again, the stats are there to support that viewpoint. But if we look at what appears to be a loving, caring mom type ...it just becomes harder to believe.
I want evidence. I want solid proof. I want whoever did this terrible thing to be arrested, convicted, and to suffer, suffer, suffer. But I don't want the wrong person(s) actually convicted, or pre-convicted in the public eye, and made to suffer for something they didn't do.
Most of all, I want Kyron found. And I suspect that until he is, there may not be any hard evidence that will get me off the fence on either side.
