Hadn't seen this Patch article/blog post by JD previous to today. Someone sent the article to me and IMO its worth a read.
The reference to the movie, "Waitress" IMO was heartbreaking as FD no doubt had had a number of affairs by the time of the last daughters birth IMO and JD friend in the NYP article I believe repeated that JD thought, "paraphrasing here: that the fifth child would make a difference in the relationship...".
Reading this all now is so simply heartbreaking as its clear that as far back as 2012 that JD was processing aspects of her family life and relationship.
MOO MOO MOO
Quote from JD blog:
"There is a movie called Waitress, where the main character has a dreadful husband, and starts an affair with her married OB-GYN, and is torn and unsure about having a baby and these men and her life in general, but once they place her newborn daughter in her arms, everything else melts away and there is Absolute Foreground Clarity. This baby is Love, is Life, is It. And she leaves the husband, and doctor, and starts her own bakery, called Lulu’s (her daughter’s name), and grows happier and happier each day, but for her daughter’s existence".
Christiane, my caretaker