Dear Raven,
Why don't you confess? If you didn't mean to kill your wife, say so. If this was an argument that went out of control, say so. If you no longer wanted to be married, say so. Why didn't you just walk away from you life and disappear, instead of taking someone else's life? Why would you put Janet's family through this horror of no closure? At this point, can you just be a man and accept the consequences of your actions? It appears you have not been able to do this thus far in your life. It appears you tried to accept your failures and bad choices you made in your life on April 25, 2005. Why not on April 26, 2005? You probably thought Janet was at a higher level than you in all ways (spiritually, financially, education, kindness, sincerity, maturity, parental skills, etc.). Traits you thought you could never aspire to or live up to. From all accounts, Janet was a high caliber person and her family raised her well. From what we know about you, you are the exact opposite end, and was not raised well. Do the right thing for once! Confess to the worst decision you have ever made and bring some closure to Janet's family. They deserve at least this. And then do the right thing and let Janet's family raise Kaiden. I would think that you would want Kaiden to be like Janet, not you. If Janet's family raises him, he will most likely turn out to be a well rounded, well adjusted decent man. Compare that to you and your family. Raven, do the right thing!