My video (and this case) experience, if anyone is interested:
I watched it about 2 times when the case hit the news. To be honest, I did very well - I think I have the ability to distance myself a bit through the computer screen and because I didnt know much about Jun Lin, LM and the rest of the case, it was not that bad for me.
However - I then started to learn more about the murder, joined your wonderful webite, read ALL the many pages on here. I learned about the poor victim Jun Lin, saw his photos and his bright smile. I learned about LM, who in some pics and videos seems so arrogant its unbearable - and in some, to me, he seems pretty normal. I also learned about Canada, how and when exactly the crime happened and a lot more. All that time I never watched it again.
Then I felt the need to check something once more in the video and went back to see it. But this time I was overwhelmed. I could not watch, it made me really sick, sad and angry. I was surprised by how much my emotions had changed. I even had the impression of being able to smell the bloody mattress, and that was the point when I closed the site and decided to never watch it again and let Jun Lin rest in peace.
Also, when I first talked to my boyfriend about the murder 2 weeks ago, I described him some details and then all of a sudden I felt very sick. I was probably imagining to dismember a human body myself, actively, and that was too much. I dont mind reading about disturbing details, but talking about it went too far for me.
Strange, huh
But I have to say I am very happy that I indeed felt sick and sad at some point, I was a little scared of myself at first because I thought I wouldnt have any empathy or emotions at all.
I dont know if I regret watching it... I realised that I forget the content very fast. I somehow felt bad for watching it because LM actually put the video in the web because he wanted people to see it, and I feel like doing him a favour by watching it. I also feel like doing him a favour every time I write a post about this case on here. I imagine him getting out of prison someday in the future (dont hope so, but I dont know!) and reading everything on here and feeling very good.
And something else is my mind these days (sorry for the long post, I feel the need to share it)...
There will be for sure similiar stories in the future, murders being uploaded on the internet, for the fame and attention.
And just because a few idiots just like LM (and the disturbed people who enjoy child *advertiser censored*) need to do such senseless ********, the internet will change completely and get more and more censored.
The world wide web is such a great invention that can be used for so many good things - but the dark side of humans will make it impossible to use.
LM is a loser. The world doesnt need him anymore.