To Logan:
I have tears in my eyes as I type this. My son, who is two days older than your Gabriel, cut his first tooth yesterday. When I saw it, I couldn't help but think about how wrong it is that you are missing out on these things with Gabe. I know he was teething and learning to crawl when he was taken from you. And I know that even if God brings Gabriel back to you, you can't ever get these things back. I know my son has changed and grown tremendously in the last 3 months and it's heartbreaking to know first hand what you are missing right now. Every milestone my son meets, I think of Gabriel and wonder if he is meeting that same milestone. When I kiss him and put him to bed, I worry about if Gabriel is being loved, and I get angry because even if he is safe and warm, it should be you who is putting him to sleep. I feel extremely sad when I think about all the things that Elizabeth has taken away from you, your family, and most of all, from baby Gabriel. I feel angry knowing that when you get your son back, you will have to explain to him someday all the horrible things his "mommy" did to him and to you. Your innocent child should only have ever had to just grow, learn and be loved.
Please know that I won't ever stop looking for Gabriel. I'm here with you in spirit, thought and prayer, every single day, even when I can't be online or actively searching. My sincerest wish and prayer is for you to have little Gabriel home and settled by his first birthday (if not sooner), and that the two of you can begin your new life together. Don't give up, I'm waiting for the day I see you holding that gorgeous boy again.
