When she last spoke to the jury I hoped she would show some remorse in order to respect Travis Alexander and his family and friends.
But when JA spoke I felt nothing, absolutely nothing. She doesn't have feelings and feelings are the soul's language. Steven and Amanda Alexander moved the jurors to tears and JA must have tried to imitate them in order to get the jurors to react the same way.
But if there are no feelings then no feelings can be awakened.
It's not a case of her repressing her emotions, as she stated in the interview yesterday. I've met people like her and they get moved only when they praise themself of feel sorry for themself.
An apology is always emotional, it shows humility and sincere remorse. Due to her lack of empathy and lack of emotions the family will never get an apology from her. In her mind it's 'beneath' her level.
All they get is her mental playing with words, sentences where she first admits to something but invalidates in the next sentence. She still hasn't taken responsibility for her actions. I doubt she even understands that herself?!?
When watching the interviews she gave yesterday it was quite obvious to see when she lied by following her eyes. But that's just it - the only way to recognize it is to see her eyes, that small nano-second which is so short that it usually goes unnoticed.
She has come up with the most unbelievable lies during these years, however she still can't explain in detail what happened the day she took the life of Travis Alexander.
I don't believe for a second that she was a battered woman, methinks it was the other way around, it was Travis Alexander who was the battered man. He was a man who had a kind and loving heart, a man who due to his childhood experiences and soul was able to empathize with people - on an emotional level.
She is probably lying about so many things, I even think that she took those photos of herself, not Travis Alexander. I don't know how she had planned it in her mind, but she was definitely trying to create some 'documentation' and knew exactly what she was going to do to Travis. She had the gun and she had the knife when going there, hence it was not something Travis Alexander 'triggered' in her, she was on a mission.
It wouldn't surprise me at all if she had stalked and waited for the right moment to come and due to her insane arrogance she didn't even understand that life isn't a chess game and people aren't pieces you move around on the table; they have emotions and those she can't foresee.
Sorry for this rant, I'm just so astonished over her latest interview. Had Travis done something bad to her, then we would not had heard the end of it, she would had used it mercilessly throughout the whole trial. That's why I think that we will never hear what really took place.
It's so heartbreaking to see his family and friends, they have moved me to tears since their emotions are genuine and real
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