More thoughts on Farren,
I will be uploading a high-resolution photo of Farren's High School Junior Year Photo! He is so cute!!! It makes his disappearance that more heartbreaking! I have some more thoughts:
Early April 1980 (April 1,- April 8, 1980)- I think this is the timeframe when Farren first made the call about staying at the "International Hotel" (now, believed to be the "National Hotel" based on the information we have.) This is when he said he was happy living there some other men, but had lost his job and needed money. His Mom refuses to send him any. He calls his grandmother and tells her that he loves her. Grandma wants him to come back home to Oregon. Farren kindly says something, appreciating her concern for him, but says, "Don't worry, I will figure something out."
April 8-April 20, 1980- Farren looks for other jobs, evaluates where he is in life. Hangs out with the friends and community bonds that be has established at the hotel, possibly for several months, maybe even longer. (Well before April, 1980) I think he enjoyed connecting with the young people there and the small-town feeling where he had the cool feeling of being on his own. He does not let on to others about his financial woes, which are hurting him inside, deeply.
April 20- April 24, 1980-Realizing that Farren can't find work to pay his debt he probably tells one or two close friends that he is leaving to go find work. But so as not to worry them, he says that he will be back. He leaves around this date or a few days after. But Farren probably felt in his mind that he wasn't coming back.
April 24, 1980- I believe that this is the date that Farren left the National Hotel and the date that people first sense that he was missing. Farren could have hit the road for some time searching for work. But he knows that he can't go back home to Oregon, can't ask anyone for money really feels that he has no one whom he can confide. This date was the first official "Something is wrong" date.
May 1, 1980- I believe that this is the date that Farren was reported missing, but he had already decided his fate by this time. Either suicide, which I honestly put at about 70%. If he is not UID #1, I think he may have drowned himself in San Francisco Bay. Farren would be the type who, if things got really bad, and he wanted to kill himself, because he was afraid that LE was going to come after him for unpaid bills that he could not pay. He would want to make sure that his body would be impossible to find. Establishing a new identity with the gay community is at about 30%. But Farren's Uncle said that Farren was not the type to elaborately stage a disappearance. His Uncle thinks he was probably murdered, But in all honesty, I only put that at 10%. The reason why Farren's Uncle thinks this in my view, is because the thought of Farren committing suicide his too painful for him to contemplate. But the last conversations with his grandmother, "Don't worry, I love you." Many times, people who commit suicide will often put on a false happy front in their last conversations. They have already planned to do it, and want people to remember them happy.
Circumstantial evidence shows that relationships between Farren and his Mother were strained at best, and horrible at best. I posted that it is very possible that his Mother had Farren when she was very young, considering the age of Farren's grandmother at the time he went missing. We are looking at Farren in a relationship with two woman Farren's grandmother (presumably Mom's Mother) and Farren's Aunt (presumably Mom's sister) over a period of many years.
Farren could have been an unwanted pregnancy. One of those classic high school romances, with irresponsibility connected to it in a big way. Was Farren born out of of wedlock? How well did Farren know his father, if at all? The point being that poor Farren never had a male father figure in his life, or it sure seems like this was the case. Could you imagine the sense of love and belonging that Farren felt connecting with those young guys not only at the National Hotel, but potentially for months on the road? Farren could have seen being gay as a very special thing! A very loving thing, A sense of belonging that he never had before. I think he certainly wanted to travel and see the world when he turned 18. But an important purpose of those travels was to find the father figures that he never had growing up as a child.
Farren probably worked at one or more of the following jobs: Busboy, dishwasher, street vender, shoe shiner, but his main love was the male bonding and the love that he found in San Francisco, which for him was home. However, when he lost his job and couldn't play his debts, and he couldn't afford to live anyplace anymore, the loss of that sense of belonging devastated Farren. It brought tears to his eyes and broke his heart. This is probably why he met a tragic fate.
That June 1, 1980 date reported by Farren's Aunt about him being dropped of at a campsite in Oregon is probably wrong. I think she probably meant some time in April or May, That June date fits no other timeline on the documentation about Farren's case that fits anyplace else. I do believe it likely that when his Aunt and grandmother took him to the campsite, that she is correct about this being the last face-to-face contact that either had with Farren. To get to a potential smoking gun on this case, we have to find a credible person who knew Farren, with whom he confided about his travels, and would be willing to share what they think happened to him. We need closure!
Oh I hope I am wrong about Farren's tragic fate. I will remember Farren Stanberry for the rest of my life! Sounds like he would be an awesome friend! I hope that wherever he is that Farren has found peace and love!
Satch
