Totally understood. I sometimes struggle with the concept of forgiveness. For example John Couey, who kidnapped, raped over a period of days, and then buried little 9 year old Jessica Lunsford alive! :furious: How am I supposed to forgive him? I have decided that I don't, and I won't forgive him. For one thing, people should repent in order to be forgiven. John Couey has not repented to anyone, and he isn't going to IMHO. When the Jessica Lunsford thing happened, I was literally going insane over trying to understand how to deal with the sheer evil of it. That kind of hatred and obsession with wrongness and evil will rot you from the inside out. Therefore, I have to feel pity for those I cannot forgive. I pity him for freaking CHOOSING to live a life that was so self-centered and evil, that he could justify satisfying his own base desires by stealing the beautiful, joyful child that lived next door to satisfy his needs. Who the F do these people think they are, that they have a right to destroy innocence for their own selfish purposes? The thing I pity about them, is the obvious fact that THEY do not know, do not cherish, and cannot fathom the innocence, the goodness, the joy, and the sheer shinning beauty that is the core of the souls of the children they abuse. The molester's soul is filled with dark, dank, misery that they CHOOSE to keep the lid tightly closed upon thus, preventing any light from shinning in. Ok....I have rattled on enough. I just can't forgive these people, so I keep myself from rotting inside, by pittying them for the darkness that they wallow in. Despite being obsessed with true crime, I see goodness in people. I certainly see it in YOU Sherri! I see it in all of the regular people who care enough to come here and search and seek. My life is filled with joy and light......because I freaking CHOOSE it to be that way! 'nuff said!