Hi Cami. I thought the mothership was pretty dead on. LOL.
Witey,
Yes, it was VERY hard to realize I had been sucked into a big fat lie. I guess the main reason I was, was because those guys, exept for Chris, actually totally BELIEVE all this stuff. Heck, the only reason that Barbara turned, IMO was the bs fingerprint that Chris was showing about claiming it was the investigators kid. I checked it out, and it's total crap. But Chris had a nice laugh about it when I called him on it. I tried to warn the others, but it was too late. They were invested publically.
Have no doubt, Mama Darlie, and the Dar hate me. A lot of those guys hate me. But others and I are actually good friends. They respect my opinion, and I respect theirs. They feel bad for me because they think I don't have all the information, and I feel bad fo them that they are being fed all this bs. Nice people trying to do the right thing in their mind. Even Mama Darlie in my opinion. Chris and I always got along. I get him. I don't think Darin is upset, because supposedly I was supposed to meet him, Chris, and Jeff Crilly at a Deep Ellum bar one night, but I declined. I was still very pissed off about the exhumation, and those three dudes were front and center in the whole horror show.
But back to the realization that I was wrong. Jeana and I had been at each others throut's even though were were respectful of one another, and I was gonna show her butt by sitting down and using the transcripts, Darlie's Words, and the blood evidence, and figure this all out and set her straight. LOL. I put up a roomful (20ft x 30ft) of erasable boards on which I started tracking every little detail. The killer was the blood evidence boards. I had to face the fact that I blew it, that I was wrong. And not only that, I felt compelled to tell everyone so. I mean, I just couldn't keep it in, and keep any kind of dignity.
And so, I turned into the supporter AntiChrist.
I can't tell you how sick I was about it. I had invested months in this at the time. I had made friends with a lot of the supporters. I really liked all these people. I felt like I was letting them down. But hey, what is more important?
In the end, I kept some friends, and lost some others. Darlie had been a "cause" for me for months, and I realized I was so very wrong. It was heartbreaking. Maybe that's why I still pity her so much. I saw her as a real person, with real problems and stresses. I don't condone what she did, but on some twisted level I can almost understand. I spent a long time putting myself in her shoes.
But at the end of the day, it's a heartwrenching story of lives that were destroyed and continue to be destroyed. It's just sad for all involved.
And especially those poor kids who had to be baffelled out of their mind at why their Mommy was doing this to them. I hope they all find some kind of peace eventually.
