I wanted to post this here as a human reminder of what an intelligent and vibrant young woman Elisa was and how she wanted so much to give her best to this world:
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Thank you to the wonderful tumblrs I follow and that never fail to deliver an endless stream of inspiration and awesomeness. This is the longest letter so sorry in advance for taking up your dash.
I can safely say and with absolute certitude that I found myself again. I lost myself at 17 and after 4 years of pain, loneliness, directionless wandering, I am me again. I feel my heart and brain working together again and for the last 4 years they were working against each other that drove me to insanity. But I’m not angry or bitter anymore. I am a manic depressive and I would not press the button to take it all away. At 21 years young, I understand things only a lifetime will teach you and I know that this is the most rarest thing of all. Possibly the most noblest pursuit next to love.
I have a lot of thanks to give and nothing was possible without the internet. Everything I have come across, has happened to me, that I’ve learned read/seen/smelt/touched/felt and stood in the presence of in awestruck, I owe every second that you existed before me.
Currently I follow about 700+ tumblrs which is insane trying to keep up.
To my parents for buying me my OWN computer when I started high school. To having an older sister that came before me. To my grandpa for caring for me from my birth and making me his favourite and that I was with him the last 24 hours before he died. To my ancestors, I will live the rest of my conscious seconds in your honour to make the world a better place and make judgments more aware.
To my best friend who I’ve known since kindergarten, who has been my anchor that isn’t blood related, who has never deserted me, whose death I will mourn as both a brother and a sister. *by default I need to include Byron + Gavin
To every person I had a connection with via school (especially my teachers ughhhh even the **** ones looking at you piano teacher) and outside of school IRL, you all exposed me to something that I didn’t understand, letting it sit in my brain knowing that one day it will all come together and make sense.
To technology and the internet. To p2p, blogs, social media. To FAD and fashion file which opened the world of fashion and, in turn, the rest of the society to me. To my love of reading and colours that made me the giant fangirl I am of comics, satire and Harry Potter, which in turn led me to tumblr.
And to think I once thought tumblr was silly. Oh me from the past.
Enough mushy cheesy stuff. Let’s get to some promo-4-promo WHICH I HAVE DONE ONLY ONCE BEFORE SO IF YOU ASK ME YOU WILL BE MET WITH REJECTION IN THE FORM OF SILENCE OR A SNARKY REMARK. Also don’t ask me to ‘check out your blog’ because if I haven’t encountered it before, I most certainly will not click on your link now.
talkingtokafka I hope you return soon! You were the reason I started a tumblr =) You may never know how much I owe you. You are the only one in my books who is allowed to use the word ‘curate’ (well also vineetkaur and nevver)
The kickass Hilary of hilside and Ferry of lifeonsundays. The first two people who taught me the power of anonymity and human connection.
To Mandy of rememo for some of my favourite quotes and knowing what true wisdom is and talking about life/books/movies/fashion/feminism anything and everything with me.
canadian problems for the lulz and making you all wish you were Canadian
To Sophie & Jialin you saved my life without evening having to give a real hug. Robert.
To Joy ofstrangersensibilities for that one email and two cups of coffee. To Isabel of hipstersmusings & Danielle of final fashion. Darling OliverTo the 4 boys of The Buried Life. To the girls and quotes of larmoyante
To the Harry Potter, Doctor Who & Sherlock fandom. I would include Supernatural but I just…I can’t. I can’t inhuman/whale/velociraptor/pterodacty noises j;kakjsdl;ajsl; djlwjhenwoiuelajsh;d;ljm;m
To oppobre and woluf, you two should actually be much closer to the top but I’m sorry my psychosis and patriotism got in the way. Blame America.
atphotographystudio Buddha says if you don’t make a choice one will be made for you.
alec shao of likeafieldmouse and ughhh can’t remember right now but you the lonely boy from Saudi Arabia I will put your tumblr here once I recover from this brainfart for your hearts. Together you are the Doctor.
lylaandblu thank you for those 3 red envelopes. I am a fighter.
To all the anonymous greyfaces for your bravery and the reminder you are never alone. Thank you for listening, thank you so much for writing, thank you so much for reminding me of hope with your words. To all of my followers, I suppose you are all greyfaces so by default, the same goes for all 2k+ of you.Ava you are the epitome of this description.
Celine of ellephanta (behind Letters to Dead People) Yeewon of girlsack, thank you for answering so candidly.
my best to 680mL, iamyourlung, 0000 + theotherway who runs the kid’s a looker and heart in a cage for your honesty
vineetkaur for all things beautifully designed.
To Ji of luxirare for food/fashion/design and for never sacrificing quality for quantity
To Auntie M, s wolf and Alex for their expert wielding of wit and criticism
To Susie Bubble for being the greatest fashion blogger OF ALL TIME
dead fleurette, gensdumonde, halcyon, lapindelune/dansedelune (also behind la mariniere), theepitomeofquiet + saudade for stylish inspiration and the lovely ladies in pantalons at wearing the pants
moldavia, cotonblanc, isoe, foudre, musingsinfemininity + bienenkiste you know why
interwar for reminding me how fascinated I was about WWII when I was younger and your tags. margutska please pleeeeaaaase post more
thehungryarchitect, chasingsilhouettes, ruineshumaines, takeovertime, rcruzniemiec, lionskeleton, ephemeralasting for your vision
infographics, photoshop, charts, RSS feeds, pi, pythagoras’ theorem, sine curve, the derivative, the limit, e = mc squared, y = mx + b, f= ma, equilibrium, evolution (Darwin’s beard), if you were not just vague inanimate ideas I would totally marry the f*ck out of you (and maybe all the 10K notes)
and finally the greatest tumblr of ALL TIME nevver. Peteski you will and are doing great things.
And of course there is more and I’m sorry that my memory is fuzzy. I have tried to put you in the order of your influence, the bigger impact your existence has had on me, the closer to the top (key word I TRIED I mean there a lot is debatable). As a general rule, whatever I end up posting and who I reblog from is definitely worth a look.
If any of you deactivate or NOT leave your new URL I might lose my ****.
My greatest wish is that one day I will meet you, even for the briefest of moments IRL.
So merci to everyone who continue to prove how awesome the world is on tumblr. Nouvelle-nouveau wouldn’t be possible without you guys. I wouldn’t have been able to conquer depression without you. I would be able to live without you.
I dedicate this to all of you, humanity and the universe and to anyone who has ever felt lonely so that means every.single.one.of.you.
Following is a list of insane asks. I’m holding an AMA for ONE DAY ONLY SO CALL NOW IN THE NEXT 20 MINUTES AND RECEIVE A BONUS ANSWER ABSOLUTELY FREE. I also have a formspring.
Best of luck and may the odds be ever in your favour,
Me
PS// Let the wild rumpus begin
Take chances, make mistakes, get messy - Ms. Frizzle (aka the best teacher OF ALL TIME)"
RIP Elisa. We will keep you in our thoughts/prayers as well as your family. What a tragedy to lose a precious soul like you.